Cortes Island Adventure

About 2 weeks ago I was hosting a group meditation at a friend’s house in Union Bay, Vancouver Island.  She does what is called Angel Readings.  It was really cool to watch her do her work.  She went into a meditation and the whole room changed vibrational feel.  She wrote down 7 or 8 things, and then we talked about them while she translated her visions.

Talking about psychic work comes with a lot of hype and stereotype.  She was so humble the entire time and it was obvious that simply being of service was her only motive.

It was not like someone trying to influence things in a direction to somehow manipulate things to go her way, as there was nothing for her to gain (It was a free reading).

I know many psychic readers who are of service and pure of intent.  And although I have met others who are not, it is quite obvious to discern if there is a personal agenda or not.  I am really writing about this because when people hear about psychic readers, even open people, there is often skepticism.  Skepticism can be very helpful, in a healthy dose.  Yet it is very easy to block experiences due to skeptical beliefs and then say they are not beliefs!

I know this because I have done it myself and a few times very clearly missed opportunities for growth!

The point of this story is that she recommended that I come to this Island and put myself out there to do readings myself, which I have been doing on and off for over a year, to work through a block in doing them confidently.  The block is that I do not want to be seen as someone who is trying to influence anything for my own desires, or that I somehow know more than another ultimately, just a person listening to spirit and translating to the best of my ability.

The island, Cortes, is beautiful.  The community here is really unique.  Nude sunbathing and hitch hiking is normal.  Healing and insights seem to be very apparent here as well.  The “magical brain” of synchronicity and manifestation has been working in really fun and cool ways, and I am absolutely being taken care of (As always).

As one person put it, whatever you focus on here tends to grow, which is true everywhere, but there is something just a little different on this island.  Even the produce is so abundant that more often than not food has to be given away in order not to go bad.  In that way I have been offered lots of really good food!

There is a bit of a mentality for people that live here versus those from away.  Not many people are like this but I have picked it up a few times.  As one person said though, it’s a great chance to stand in ones truth without needing to prove anything.  And if one is true, and I know that I am, then that trueness will last the entry test.

I have felt ecstatic bliss and some emotional lows as well, but a part of the path of understanding is to start trusting that these states will come and go.  To remain open to things as they do shift, and simply respond to the best of our ability in the moment of presence.  It can be a trap to get identified with bliss as well, never to block the option, but to be attached to it if it goes away.  There is an ebb and flow (just like the weather), and if we think we are in control of it, it can be painful.  We are in control of certain things, and not of others, and there is no formula, only experience!

I will update as things progress.  Will be working here at some markets and festivals doing readings, healings, and guided meditation.

I have been doing video blogs, but want to keep up with both my writing and videos.

Check out the videos on my youtube channel:  http://www.youtube.com/user/StellarVibrations

Love!

What on Earth is Going on?

As most of you know, I have been using this blog as a space to talk about the inner and outer adventures that I have been experiencing for the last year.  Before this blog, I did some facebook posts about a trip to India.

When I woke up this morning, I started to sense that there was an “upgrade” coming through for me in terms of writing.

The upgrade is that I am going to begin talking about the bigger picture involved in what is going on.  It has taken me a little bit of time to feel comfortable doing this, because everywhere we find people talking about the changes that are happening.  Some people are calling it a “shift” in consciousness, the end of the mayan calendar, the start of the age of Aquarius, and most recently, Harold Campings “rapture”.

Truth be told there is something happening.  And each of these is A way to describe it.  But none of them are THE way to describe it.  This is because the nature of change, the spirit of evolution, does not come with a particular ideology or belief system.

A belief system must have limits to its expression.  By its very nature there is a scope of some ”thing” that is happening, which would have a specific appearance.  There is no room for the unexpected.

The bigger picture however, is that the unexpected is exactly the dimension of experience which is being integrated.

When we do not know what is coming, then oddly enough, we start to have a better sense of what is coming.  At the very least there is an inherent faith as things unfold.

This is paradoxical and can be hard to understand.  Actually it is impossible to understand, and that is the point.

To open up to the unknown is a daunting task, because we are required to challenge the perceptual limitations of a worldview which does not allow for anything unmeasured.

As an example, often times when these changes are talked about, love is what is expected.  This is fine when love is truly understood.  However, our ideas about love can absolutely get in the way of discernment.  Sometimes love is one of the most ass kicking experiences available.  It is the force that knocks away misperceptions and reveals the freshness of truth.

It is in my experience that we are always ultimately safe, “protected” if you will, yet when love comes knocking on ones door, often times there is an illumination which shows areas of our lives which are not in line with our truth.

The heart of compassion is absolutely necessary for ourselves and others while we are in the midst of changing.  Never, ever, is the Universal awareness “mad” at us, or holding a grudge.  A grudge is a man-made concept and does not hold a candle to awareness itself.

And so, something to consider is, what if most things that I think about reality are not completely true?  Not that they are false, but that there is always room for an expansion of scope and understanding.

In this way we have an opportunity to move beyond belief systems which have a “cap” on them, and into a dynamic, ever-changing understanding.  There is room for what is unknown, and there is room for what cannot be known.  Adding these dimensions of experience lend room for peace of mind and daring exploration.

Winds of Change

The title of this blog is called “Stellar Vibrations”.  What I mean by that is that there are layers to this reality.  Some forces are physical and obvious, and some are more subtle in their nature.  There are many layers, so this is not meant to oversimplify things, but the subtle cosmic forces that I am calling Stellar Vibrations is what I consider the winds of change, which comes and moves our lives if we allow.

I say, “if we allow” because no one wants to feel as though they are being forced into anything.  This is rightfully so.  However, it is also important to remember that there is an interconnectivity which we all adhere to.  There are individual changes, collective changes, planetary changes, etc.  There is a bigger picture after all.  So keeping that in mind, it is also important to remember that these winds are for our highest good.  If you doubt this, look back on your life.  How often did something, perhaps even perceived as bad, lead to a higher understanding or evolutionary change in your life?

So far as I can tell, opening to the winds of change and allowing our awareness to move with the currents is a much more reasonable endeavour.  Transformation and evolution is the natural state of this reality.  It is only a perception of physical permanency which would want a life that does not grow.  And this perception, although beautiful in its own right, can lead to a kicking and screaming experience (spoken from personal experience), when we are often being taken into our own higher understanding.

Happy Sailing!

A New Adventure Begins, Reflections on the Last One

Today I left the farm that I have been at for the last 2 months.  I am now staying at a lovely ocean side home with a really great lady.  I am doing some work around her house in exchange for a place to stay.

I have learned so much, grow so much, and re-birthed two major areas of my life; that of addiction and sexuality.

These two areas are the major areas of my life that I have been looking to rebirth in.

About a month ago I went to see a healer who pointed directly to the “voice of addiction” within me.  Being exposed, it was very easy to embrace this truth.  And after that voice was recognised, it has been easy to see where it is been effecting my life.  It is a very subtle reasoning behind unhealthy habits.

Funny enough, one of the major places that the voice of addiction has lodged itself has been in “It’s my perception that matters”.

This fundamental truth, which is one of the grand keys to shifting reality, is a very valuable understanding.  However, it must be used with grounding in what is.

If “Its my perception that matters” begets unhealthy lifestyles, and doesn’t leave room for new experiences, then it is a mask.

I am not a “puritan”, but at the same time, why not take good things into the body?  The rating scale as to what is good doesn’t necessarily need a ton of science behind it (Though there is nothing wrong with that) – It is a matter of honest appraisal, and communication with the body.  Each person is indeed different, yet organic food, vegetables, clean water, and physical work seem to be really, really practical.

I am not saying that I am over all addictions; that would be a ridicules thing to claim.  However, knowing the voice has helped me understand my former vices, actually have deeper compassion for myself, and most certainly others.

The movement out of an unhealthy pattern (of thought/perception/action) takes an extreme amount of compassion (so as not to attack the pattern), as well as a firm decision to shift.  I cannot stress this enough after being through these latest transformations.  It has taken a direct “I am ready”, as one friend put it, “is it me who gives that go?” – Maybe not, but it seems to take a certain amount of co-operation in order to manifest.  I don’t really understand that, but maybe that’s for the best.

The other thing was around sexuality.  It’s been a bit of a backwards trek.  Some of the things I have been working with have been letting go of addiction and lust.  However, sexuality being one of the most vulnerable experiences available, this has mostly been allowing myself to ACCEPT my sexuality as it is.  Accept, have compassion for, and point in new directions.

After going into some of the deepest, darkest places that I have within myself, seeing/accepting, and deciding to move in line with my higher nature, transformations are happening within me.

I realized yesterday, that this is because I am a WARRIOR of light.  It is only yesterday that I remembered the bravery that it truly takes to be with these darker energies for transmutation.

I have masked the truth of being this warrior with misperceptions of low self worth and even spiritual teachings which fear ego.

The truth is that this collective of humanity is riddled with darkness, confusion, and misperception.  And anyone who decides to heal these splits within, partake in service, and do what we know in our heart is true.

Anyone who decides to do this is a warrior of light.  Anyone who steps onto this plane with the intention to heal one self and thus uplift humanity, in any fashion, is here to be a warrior.

It is important to give recognition where recognition is due, to each and everyone one of us for following our own becoming.

The only thing that I am a bit bummed about is a cavity that I have!  I have had it for quite some time, but lately its really showing my its pain.  I am going to try and find a temp agency to do some work to get it fixed.

Love you all!

Fasting - Cleansing my lower chakras

For the last 44 hours, I have been fasting on the theme of sexuality, power and survival.

These energies have been presenting themselves as energies that I need to work with and I will explain that in a bit…

Here is an excerpt from the book I am writing about fasting:

Experiencing a fast has been the closest thing to a psychedelic experience without intake.

There are several common things to happen during a fast.  Firstly, our desires for things to be different than they are come up.  We can clearly see that there is a deep drive to be having reality be doing something other than what is happening.  Of course, this can be translated into many other facets in life, and can lead to a deeper appreciation for personal bravery.

Secondly, because there is no intake, our body is not focused on distributing energy in the same way.  The energy is left entirely to its own devices, its own internal mechanisms for cleansing, organising and shaping what is already there.

Much like a psychedelic experience, sometimes we are faced with fears/guilt/issues that are coming up to be processed, and sometimes we are sent into ecstatic states of understanding.  Often times both, but it is important not to come into it with an expectation of either.

There are also different types of fasts.  Sometimes it is not only about not eating.  It can be about eating something in particular, or not eating something.  Not doing something we normally do: Sex, computers, tv, etc

It is important to be reasonable with ourselves.  It is easy to want to bite off more than we can chew.  Start with one day for whatever the experience is, and work your way up to more.  Of course, don’t listen to me, but trust yourself.  I have bitten off more than I could chew before, and doing a fast/retreat experience without wanting to  be there, though we can challenge these patterns, if we choose to just sit in resentment can be a waist of energy and/or leave a bad taste in our mouth for the possibilities/opportunities that these come with.

The “all or none” fascist mindset can be a remedy for repression rather than exploration.  Be careful, but also be daring!

So I stopped eating after suppertime on Wednsday evening and the on Thursday morning simply continued.

This is the third time I have done a non-eating fast.  But I have done two other dietary fasts before so I am getting used to the experience.

Thursday afternoon I went to a cabin for the evening and got back today (Friday) around 1:30pm

Because I am getting used to the experience, I was not craving food, or rather, I was settled in the experience I was having.  The feelings that come up and happen as the body gets used to no food intake is very unique.  There was lucidity, highs, lows, confusion, understanding, the whole gambit!

I drank a lot of water, and peed 25 times.  Because I was focused on my lower chakras, this is no surprise.  When going through a transformation, water can be one of the best energetic “transducers”.  As many people in the spiritual community know, water is a very malleable substance, and can aid or take away from whatever is necessary.

So I was peeing out what no longer worked, and taking in my new intention.

In Buddhist philosophy, when we go on spiritual journeys of any kind, there is the opportunity for the records of humanity, the earth, the cosmos, the animals, planets, etc that we explore and integrate into our awareness.

Well this one was pretty intense, I came face to face with a very violent, and sexually abusive part of myself.  Someone who would take advantage of another without remorse.

I knew that this was coming, simply because I have asked for a true upgrade of my sexuality to be in full line with my heart.

Whenever we ask for something, be assured that the steps will be taken.

Often times those steps are of A) Forgiving through the acceptance of seeing the energies, and B) Releasing/transforming through the sincere movement for a change to open up an aligned flow.

I am actually embarrassed to write about this, as I consider myself a kind person.  That very consideration however has the opportunity to stuff shadows even further into the dark, and keep the flow blocked.

So a part of my therapeutic experience is to share this, even though there is a part of me that wishes I didn’t see it to begin with!

I wrote out some very disturbing things, screamed at the top of my lungs, and allowed very aggressive and intrusive energies/thoughts/emotions to come up.

When doing this sort of thing (It is not always THIS dramatic) it is important to be in a safe space, and feel comfortable without being disturbed.

Today, after settling with myself, forgiving the energies coming up (This is easy for me in a lot of situations, but sexuality has always been a sticky point for me), and allowing the transformation, I am feeling much better.

Perhaps there is more work to do on this subject, but I feel lucky to be in supportive spaces within and without.

I do know that it is time to purify and integrate these energies into an alignment with my true nature.  And that there is no time like the present ;)


I go to an astrology website, and this is what she said about the evening I was fasting:

"tonight we have an opportunity to look at old stuff. don't let the trigger mislead you- what is coming up is most likely very ancient." - Amen.
Thanks for reading!

Vancouver Island

I have been on Vancouver Island for almost two months!

The theme here has been rebirth.

There are certain patterns that I was working with at home that I was having trouble dropping.  When I say patterns I mean thoughts, words, and emotions - familiar routines that appear to be a personality.

When these routines are beneficial they can be lovely, but the ones I have been working with are of poor self worth, self pity, fear of commitment, fear of creating, and subtle control patterns.

It has been a very intense month in particular, allowing these energies within myself to come up, and ask for, and work with transmutation.

I am blessed to be here on this lovely farm – It is almost creating a womb like experience…

I have done and learned a lot about landscaping – It is so amazing to be a part of a transformation of a piece of land.  In one day it looks completely different from when it started.  Every bit of landscaping is metaphoric to me of inner landscaping…

To do weeding and to pull out the roots is very similar to finding patterns within that do not fit.  To plant flowers and watch them grow is very similar to setting an intention and being with the flowering of the experience.  To re-condition the soil is to “loosen up” the ground for new growth.

Another metaphor is the tools that are used, the gloves that protect the hands…

It’s amazing to be in a place where I have these opportunities!

I have come face to face with certain patterns around relationships, with some help from Lauren.  I asked her to clearly state where there was imbalance in our relationship, and bravely and in truth I learned a lot about where I can change.  Just accepting the mirror of the words was enough to start many balls in motion, many new intentions.

One thing that I am actively releasing is a mentality where I seem to get very close, then a fear of intimacy comes in and I distance, very close, distance.  That is bound to be hard on anyone, let alone someone sharing such personal space.  I feel that the roots are in self worth.

Along the same lines are subtle patterns of control… what I mean by that is that it’s about my coming and going.  In particular during the last week I have really come face to face with a part of me that wishes to control that flow, and again, that is bound to be rough on anyone.

Inner work is a delicate job – But if we can be true to ourselves and also accept the truth that is being reflected by those who we trust, it is very possible to change in healthy ways!

I have noticed with friends how often I was subtly reaffirming my stories lately as well – This is something to begin changing now.  There is time for release and time for seeding.  And I feel that those two spaces in healthy balance create the manifestation.

I had a very interesting experience last night.

I have been cleansing my body from alcohol for over a year now.  And I have been cleansing my body from psychedelics and drugs for the two months.

As I cleanse, my sensitivities to thoughts and emotions increases, my intuition is clearer, and my communication with guiding forces is stronger.

I am not against substances at all – But more and more I am more comfortable in sobriety, and I am walking down this path more and more as I hold healing energies for myself and others.

Last night I decided to do some “intentional drinking” just out of curiosity.

Me and 2 friends sat down and drank quite a bit of absinth.

There is always a level of honesty that comes with drinking that is a little bit different than sobriety, although I made it a goal a long time ago to drop that as a truth, and learned to speak whenever it felt right.

The same goes for dancing.

It was quite nice to sit around and have that experience – I even purged a little.

The intention going in was to continue shedding what is not necessary for my growth and those around me.

Although it was nice, I do not like the hang over, and there is a very good chance that it will be a long time before having another drink.

As the Buddha said though, try things.  Try things each way and then choose for yourself.  It is so important to have personal experience rather than solely going on the word of any other.

I think very soon I am going to go onto the next phase of this journey, and I feel that it will be to go to Victoria for awhile – We shall see how this unfolds!

Love you all

GCA5 - From Banf to Vancouver

Its been about 3 weeks since my last update – The last time I wrote I was in a serious transition in Banff, incredibly ungrounded and feeling really sick.  In a lot of ways I was moving between my life in Nova Scotia, and the unknown territory of who I am becoming.

Anyone I know who is going through a rebirth experiences periods of not having a clue who they are.  This is because whatever we have thought about ourselves previously was what might be called a solid character, or a static image.

“This is just who I am”

This kind of thinking seemed to work before – But now it doesn’t.  I can only speak for my own life of course, but I am blessed to be around others who are experiencing the same thing in their own way.

The “new” (it is only new relatively) way of Being does not confine one’s self to Being a thing – But rather taking a step back into Being itself.

There are a few ways to put this:

We identify with the experience we are having – I am Josh, I am a healer, writer, singer, and lover

Then one says, but is there more?  In a way, there is not more.  But we can remember a space that is not identified with the experience we are having.

You could refer to it as remembering the experiencer, or the witness/bare awareness of the experience.
  
"You can't summon the silent witness, but you can place yourself close to it by refusing to get lost in your own creation" - Depak Chopra

So when one is not solely identified with the experience, and remembers the bare presence of the experiencer – There is liberation from the patterns and solidity of our personal character as the only experience.  A chance to move beyond certain limitations culturally, socially, and according to our own past is made.

In that space without identification with the experience – There is actually MORE SPACE for experience – Because the identification with one way of Being, is opened to multiple ways of Being – Whichever suits the moment, “going with the flow”.

Some people call this “I am” Presence – Because you can say, “I am” without adding anything to it.  This is a major space of liberation.

I do not believe we are to “live there” – But rather know that space, and integrate in ones life.

This is not the easiest thing to explain!!

Anyway, the adventure has been amazing.

In Banff I got to sit with an Elk for about a half an hour  - Beautiful animal!  Deers are everywhere, still are here on Vancouver Island.  I got to have a really great night dancing at a dubstep show.

I was staying with two really cool dudes – And the room I was staying in had a huge spiral in the center of the room, which to me is the symbol of a forward movement without throwing away anything.

A spiral contains itself as it moves – So the end of the spiral and the start of the spiral work together.  It is said that our evolutionary  path is in the formation of a spiral – Because as we move into new evolution we take everything experienced with us.  Rather than just throwing away the past, we move with it into something new in addition to our past.  Taking the learning gained into a freshness of new learning and creating.

So many soul conversations of higher understanding – One of the guys I was staying with has been stepping outside of certain paradigms as well, and we got to talk about the big conundrum of anyone moving forward on a evolutionary path.  That certain things don’t make sense anymore, perhaps you could call them stories – in my experience it is stories of being a victim or winner (ultimately) that do not fit.  But in that, its important to not be secluded from the rest of the people in a town.

So the conundrum is honouring the personal movement out of certain paradigms, but still being able to speak to people who might be in previous paradigms.  This is not to sound “elite” or better than anyone – Its simply an experience, and works with the spiral.

The time with Jay was lovely – Its always good to be with an old friend.  We both recognised that certain patterns come up that do not necessarily represent the “best” in one another – For example, sometimes I would start to feel really weak in my throat chakra – this is because when we knew each other before I was not speaking that which is my current truth.  These overlaps can happen.  But over the course of the experience I found that there was a settling out that was very balanced by the time we parted.

We hitch hiked to Nelson – Awesome experience.  As soon as we got to the first town in British Columbia (Radium) I felt a surge of joy, and a home feeling.  It was so sunny and I just felt filled with hope for freshness in self and adventure!

We got picked up by a really cool young dude – He took us to a natural hotspring which was awesome, took us to his place, fed us homemade pizza and gave as a place to set up our tent in his backyard – Stellar experience all the way through.

All of the hitch hiking experiences were amazing, and dare I say thorough.  Buying us lunch, getting us to the perfect spots.  Really great trip.

Neslon was AMAZING – Synchronicities ruled the day and I met someone going to Vancouver within the first 10 minutes of being there.  The one thing that I noticed in Nelson is that nearly everyone I met was bright.  Bright auras if you will (I do not see auras in detail), but it was obvious that they were doing things that enriched their experience, and were not stuck in a victim, routine space.

We stayed with two of Jays friends, very beautiful girls with really cool jobs doing body painting at festivals.  Truly Beings making it work for themselves.  They took me to another hot springs with caves, really healing currents!

From there I got a drive to Vancouver through the Kootenay Mountains which was more than amazing.  I have never seen nature like this before, and fantasise about camping through there on my way back – But who the hell knows?  Things have already gone much further from any expectation I could have placed on this adventure – Which of course is what makes it an adventure.  Oh, I got a speeding ticket! haha

I almost feel like I am skipping out on so much – In the two weeks I just wrote about there was a constant stream of synchronicity, soul filled conversation, personal confusion/healing, a mending of what it means to be in relationship (or not), and meaningful experiences (both positive and negative)

But I have been lost in the experience here in the freshness as the experiencer and have not found time to write!

I will write about Vancouver, and the trip and experience I am having here on the Island soon – I am feeling incredibly authentic, real, and true to myself in a way that I have not experienced since being in India.  I have had two sexual experiences which have been more than unique to my past, and am playing music with beautiful open people.

This is a long one and I am trying to keep them short, thanks for reading!

Love

GCA4 - Bus Ride from Toronto to Calgary

Toronto is a big city!!  It was neat to go there by myself, as I felt an automatic insecurity.  I have always taken a lot of pride in my ability to know where I am going, spatial awareness – And so when I don’t know where I am I sometimes get a little weirded out – However this is my healing – How often in life do we truly know where we are? Things are subject to change, and landscapes are always evolving.

When I got on the bus, two people came in around the same time, a girl and a guy, and we ended up having beautiful conversation – The girl said, “People don’t normally just say hi in Toronto” – A fact that I often forget!

I can truly say that as I have come this far (Alberta), I value Nova Scotia more and more – This happens every time I leave, and feel that it is nice to remember how much I love where I am from.

There was a time in the middle where a group came together and we knew we were going to be on a bus together for the next 2 days.

I had some very interesting experiences with male energies.

For the last year, and a concentrated last 6 months I have been dating Lauren, and in our space we have lived in Silence of mind, and openness of heart.

For a great period of time on the bus I was feeling quite knocked over by strong male energies – It is not that they were "bad", but I am just not used to talk about “fucking girls” and things of that sort.  There is a certain degradation that just does not fit into my life anymore.

It is extremely important for me to say that this is who I have been in the not so distant past - As I accelerate and evolve, my heart opens more and more and I am becoming something new - But in a lot of ways I was seeing my past.  And also seeing where I would have went along with the conversation to fit in before.  But this is no longer who I am - I would rather be an authentic loser than an inauthentic "success".

So as I am evolving, open heart relationship, and tantric experience is what I value.  Engaging all energy centers from the bottom to the top, and experiencing un-conditional love.

The way we typically make love as humans we can do it “good” or “bad” – to be “bad” in bed is ones worst nightmare.  

The joke is that it is ALWAYS a two person experience – What one “gets out of” sex is what both partners put into it – And in an un-conditionally loving situation the rating scale is thrown out the window, and in its place is open communication and embrace.  Like children, without a pre-conception of what is good.

And it is also important to mention that it did not happen automatically - When learning, or rather unlearning how to be authentic in sexual exchange, I had to face many patterns.  Patterns of insecurity.  Masks of how to do it "right", conditional self love.  And with patience, these experiences began to transform into what they are now.

By the end of the trip we were all talking on many different levels and it was truly enriching – I was practicing patience, and am glad I did.  If I had reacted to the energies and pushed back, a door would have been closed – But by allowing patience and love to come back each time, slowly but surely I got to share my views without pushing them onto anyone (This has been a major lesson for me!).

Some of the conversations were deeply connecting, and I got to write quite a bit and gain insight into quite a few areas of my life.

We had a 12 hour delay in a bus station, and it was very bizare!  It felt kinda like being in prison at times, there was a gaurd in particular who was treating us very poorly.

However, another gaurd was really awesome!  He and I started "Channeling" - What I mean by that is that the conversation starts to happen without deliberation. Automatic talking - When two people do not want any particular outcome, there is a space for a natural, authentic flow, and he and I got to share wisdom and healing with eachother in a 2 hour channeled flow.  I can truly say that I live for this kind of exchange.

Thoughts and words move out of the way as barriors and begin to flow to eachother, rather than against eachother.

In shamanic culture, it is known as a soul exchange.  It means we take down our defenses and masks to share heart to heart.  This "heart channel" is the soul expressing itself from beyond this world, and the conversation tends to take on flavors of insight that were otherwise not accessable.

This can also be called "Space Holding" because we become the space of awareness, and not only our human form - In this space, the human form truly comes to life!

I am in Banff right now and feeling quite sick!  I feel like I am cleansing quite a bit of fear and attachment right now – My writing feels a little lacklustre, but if I don’t push through and write I tend to put things off until they “disappear”, a subtle self sabotage that I am moving through right now!

Love