Fasting - Cleansing my lower chakras

For the last 44 hours, I have been fasting on the theme of sexuality, power and survival.

These energies have been presenting themselves as energies that I need to work with and I will explain that in a bit…

Here is an excerpt from the book I am writing about fasting:

Experiencing a fast has been the closest thing to a psychedelic experience without intake.

There are several common things to happen during a fast.  Firstly, our desires for things to be different than they are come up.  We can clearly see that there is a deep drive to be having reality be doing something other than what is happening.  Of course, this can be translated into many other facets in life, and can lead to a deeper appreciation for personal bravery.

Secondly, because there is no intake, our body is not focused on distributing energy in the same way.  The energy is left entirely to its own devices, its own internal mechanisms for cleansing, organising and shaping what is already there.

Much like a psychedelic experience, sometimes we are faced with fears/guilt/issues that are coming up to be processed, and sometimes we are sent into ecstatic states of understanding.  Often times both, but it is important not to come into it with an expectation of either.

There are also different types of fasts.  Sometimes it is not only about not eating.  It can be about eating something in particular, or not eating something.  Not doing something we normally do: Sex, computers, tv, etc

It is important to be reasonable with ourselves.  It is easy to want to bite off more than we can chew.  Start with one day for whatever the experience is, and work your way up to more.  Of course, don’t listen to me, but trust yourself.  I have bitten off more than I could chew before, and doing a fast/retreat experience without wanting to  be there, though we can challenge these patterns, if we choose to just sit in resentment can be a waist of energy and/or leave a bad taste in our mouth for the possibilities/opportunities that these come with.

The “all or none” fascist mindset can be a remedy for repression rather than exploration.  Be careful, but also be daring!

So I stopped eating after suppertime on Wednsday evening and the on Thursday morning simply continued.

This is the third time I have done a non-eating fast.  But I have done two other dietary fasts before so I am getting used to the experience.

Thursday afternoon I went to a cabin for the evening and got back today (Friday) around 1:30pm

Because I am getting used to the experience, I was not craving food, or rather, I was settled in the experience I was having.  The feelings that come up and happen as the body gets used to no food intake is very unique.  There was lucidity, highs, lows, confusion, understanding, the whole gambit!

I drank a lot of water, and peed 25 times.  Because I was focused on my lower chakras, this is no surprise.  When going through a transformation, water can be one of the best energetic “transducers”.  As many people in the spiritual community know, water is a very malleable substance, and can aid or take away from whatever is necessary.

So I was peeing out what no longer worked, and taking in my new intention.

In Buddhist philosophy, when we go on spiritual journeys of any kind, there is the opportunity for the records of humanity, the earth, the cosmos, the animals, planets, etc that we explore and integrate into our awareness.

Well this one was pretty intense, I came face to face with a very violent, and sexually abusive part of myself.  Someone who would take advantage of another without remorse.

I knew that this was coming, simply because I have asked for a true upgrade of my sexuality to be in full line with my heart.

Whenever we ask for something, be assured that the steps will be taken.

Often times those steps are of A) Forgiving through the acceptance of seeing the energies, and B) Releasing/transforming through the sincere movement for a change to open up an aligned flow.

I am actually embarrassed to write about this, as I consider myself a kind person.  That very consideration however has the opportunity to stuff shadows even further into the dark, and keep the flow blocked.

So a part of my therapeutic experience is to share this, even though there is a part of me that wishes I didn’t see it to begin with!

I wrote out some very disturbing things, screamed at the top of my lungs, and allowed very aggressive and intrusive energies/thoughts/emotions to come up.

When doing this sort of thing (It is not always THIS dramatic) it is important to be in a safe space, and feel comfortable without being disturbed.

Today, after settling with myself, forgiving the energies coming up (This is easy for me in a lot of situations, but sexuality has always been a sticky point for me), and allowing the transformation, I am feeling much better.

Perhaps there is more work to do on this subject, but I feel lucky to be in supportive spaces within and without.

I do know that it is time to purify and integrate these energies into an alignment with my true nature.  And that there is no time like the present ;)


I go to an astrology website, and this is what she said about the evening I was fasting:

"tonight we have an opportunity to look at old stuff. don't let the trigger mislead you- what is coming up is most likely very ancient." - Amen.
Thanks for reading!