A New Adventure Begins, Reflections on the Last One

Today I left the farm that I have been at for the last 2 months.  I am now staying at a lovely ocean side home with a really great lady.  I am doing some work around her house in exchange for a place to stay.

I have learned so much, grow so much, and re-birthed two major areas of my life; that of addiction and sexuality.

These two areas are the major areas of my life that I have been looking to rebirth in.

About a month ago I went to see a healer who pointed directly to the “voice of addiction” within me.  Being exposed, it was very easy to embrace this truth.  And after that voice was recognised, it has been easy to see where it is been effecting my life.  It is a very subtle reasoning behind unhealthy habits.

Funny enough, one of the major places that the voice of addiction has lodged itself has been in “It’s my perception that matters”.

This fundamental truth, which is one of the grand keys to shifting reality, is a very valuable understanding.  However, it must be used with grounding in what is.

If “Its my perception that matters” begets unhealthy lifestyles, and doesn’t leave room for new experiences, then it is a mask.

I am not a “puritan”, but at the same time, why not take good things into the body?  The rating scale as to what is good doesn’t necessarily need a ton of science behind it (Though there is nothing wrong with that) – It is a matter of honest appraisal, and communication with the body.  Each person is indeed different, yet organic food, vegetables, clean water, and physical work seem to be really, really practical.

I am not saying that I am over all addictions; that would be a ridicules thing to claim.  However, knowing the voice has helped me understand my former vices, actually have deeper compassion for myself, and most certainly others.

The movement out of an unhealthy pattern (of thought/perception/action) takes an extreme amount of compassion (so as not to attack the pattern), as well as a firm decision to shift.  I cannot stress this enough after being through these latest transformations.  It has taken a direct “I am ready”, as one friend put it, “is it me who gives that go?” – Maybe not, but it seems to take a certain amount of co-operation in order to manifest.  I don’t really understand that, but maybe that’s for the best.

The other thing was around sexuality.  It’s been a bit of a backwards trek.  Some of the things I have been working with have been letting go of addiction and lust.  However, sexuality being one of the most vulnerable experiences available, this has mostly been allowing myself to ACCEPT my sexuality as it is.  Accept, have compassion for, and point in new directions.

After going into some of the deepest, darkest places that I have within myself, seeing/accepting, and deciding to move in line with my higher nature, transformations are happening within me.

I realized yesterday, that this is because I am a WARRIOR of light.  It is only yesterday that I remembered the bravery that it truly takes to be with these darker energies for transmutation.

I have masked the truth of being this warrior with misperceptions of low self worth and even spiritual teachings which fear ego.

The truth is that this collective of humanity is riddled with darkness, confusion, and misperception.  And anyone who decides to heal these splits within, partake in service, and do what we know in our heart is true.

Anyone who decides to do this is a warrior of light.  Anyone who steps onto this plane with the intention to heal one self and thus uplift humanity, in any fashion, is here to be a warrior.

It is important to give recognition where recognition is due, to each and everyone one of us for following our own becoming.

The only thing that I am a bit bummed about is a cavity that I have!  I have had it for quite some time, but lately its really showing my its pain.  I am going to try and find a temp agency to do some work to get it fixed.

Love you all!