Hitch Hiking to Toronto Part 4 - *Homeward Bound*

I left Monday morning, and again the focus or wish was to be home by Tuesday night. This time though, I felt a soaring confidence! The biggest difference this time around is that there was absolutely no experimenting with strategies as to how I would be picked up. The only experiment was to live in absolute peace, actively feeling the presence of body/mind/spirit. I knew that I was to be “successful” like I knew I had fingers.



Steff and I booked a drive on rideshare with kijiji to Montreal as a kick-start, and that was a really interesting situation.


The man driving me was quite clearly into a very traditional form of Muslim religion – And when I mentioned I had been to India his energy noticeably shifted into not feeling like for India. He was from Pakistan and they have been at war for some time.

Again, so thankful for this experience and here is why…


Being “spiritual”, it is SO easy to allow that to become a way of thinking – And ANY way of thinking can very easily turn into a mental structure. And so being in the car with one who is a fundamentalist (It happened once on the way there as well) is always a healing experience. Religious mindsets used to really annoy and upset me. This was because I was indeed adopting religious mindsets slowly but surely. Any time I felt that I was spiritual, and someone else was not – This is that same structure.


A free state of consciousness does not connote a particular way of thinking, but rather a view that sees all ways of thinking as temporary to the moment of -what is-. In other words, fleeting!


This does however take knowledge, knowledge that leads one out of a particular box that is being inhabited.


So you can see the “dilemma” – It takes knowledge to get out of a box, and yet that knowledge can very easily become a box. It is one of the most fundamental paradox’s available when it comes to exploring the nature of Self.

Hearing about what faith means to an orthodox Muslim, Jewish, or Christian always reminds me of this part that exists within myself. I have fallen into a way of thinking many times – And perhaps I will again – And perhaps that is where we end up. But right now, my exploration is focused on a free state of consciousness. Again, THAT STATEMENT could be the box. This is why discernment is a gift that we are (I Am) always learning!


I noticed when re-reading this that there was a certain key of negativity when I first wrote about the experience. Without removing it, because it is my truth as I wrote it – I am going to take this again as a healing experience and deeply integrate my bias, and also that part of myself who has done this before.


He dropped me off on the East side of Montreal, and that was awesome! I was near the underground tunnel across the river. At first, a small glimpse of fear came up – But immediately the invite to allowing presence, faith and confidence through was pre-sented.


I walked close to the tunnel and stuck out my thumb. Before I could even think about it, a car stopped. A really cool dude about my age named Tierry picked me up! It appeared as though he didn’t even think twice. Once again, Montreal was so easy and beautiful to be in. I really appreciate the vibe there.


He was going to school about 45 minutes East of the city, so I got a really good start away from the city. He spoke both French and English and we had a really nice chat.


At the new spot I had my thumb out for less than a minute again and was picked up – this was a nice quiet drive – about 30 minutes down the way.


Again, within 5 minutes a dude with a big, beautiful truck picked me up! He spoke very little English but told me that he works as a franchise owner for the yard care company “Weed Man”.


He seemed very grounded and intelligent. And invited me to stay at his place for the night. At first I thought, “No I am moving forward” – But feeling so safe with him I decided to relax for the night at around 7pm.

He set me up in one of the 4 houses on his property – It was a beautiful small little party house that his kids play in! His son and one of his friends came over and we had some beers. They were cool kids and I felt a really strong and beautiful life unfolding for them – What a treat!

I woke up in this beautiful spot in the morning, and the dude drove me to the highway.


I felt really well rested and ready to MAKE IT HOME!


Before I could even put out my thumb a dude stopped. He was about my age and a biologist that just came back from a 3 month term at the top of Quebec studying a type of shell fish. He said that he has hitch hiked quite a few times and always pays it forward when he gets the opportunity. Again, Quebec and hitch hiking was the easiest and most comfortable spot I have experienced yet. I really want to send some love, appreciate and focus on the easy to move with truth that so many people presented there.

Any who, when we were driving he said that I should check out another way. At first that sounded reasonable, but I got a little scared when we choose the new route because I had a plan and a route mapped out already. Immediately, I took this opportunity to heal. This was the new Present Moment, and I was ready to work with it in peace and presence.


When we started to get to where he was to drop me off he said, “You know what, it feels right to keep on going” – This dude drove another 2.5 hours to take me into New Brunswick and when we crossed the border took me to lunch. What a dude!!


The total driving time with him was 6 hours, and I just want to give another shout out of love to this guy for not only driving, but also joining the adventure! We talked a lot about options that we have as a species for sustainable living.


So I am going to take this opportunity to talk about this now ;)


I feel very focused on what it would take, and what it means to switch our selves onto a grid of living that is not enforced the way it is. Excuse my blaring optimism, but we have the technology, means and intelligence to create ANYTHING WE WANT. The technology of engines that work in so many different ways have already been created and then swept away for the government to keep what is in contract for gasoline.


Again, if the response to this is “Those fuckers are keeping us back!” – We are still in the game. It’s fine to be in the game – But the strongest effect that is had on society (In my opinion) is in stepping out of the game and working from that stance.


In fact, what a BLESSING! We are living in a time when the moment we are collectively ready to step out of the game, new ways of living will explode in ridicules degrees and opportunity. This is a future projection, so it is not absolute fact. And yet, I cannot perceive it in any other way. Whether this is a dysfunction or a blessing, you can decide – But I am very comfortable with feeling that we are on the verge of something very different from what we are experiencing at this time.


Now, the key is to drop (fully integrate) the game of fear and begin working (energetically and physically) on what it is we would like to experience!


Perhaps it is all in vain because whatever we want will be held back. But what the fuck else are we doing? Easy for me to say I realize ;)


Lets say for a moment that this whole Earth, Universe thing is an experiment – And we are here to explore those options. Firstly, those who are “in control” are doing the same, and rightfully. Now, not in opposition to that game, lets simply begin a new one!


Reading this will either sound genius or childish, and that is okay. Just for the fuck of it though – What is it that you would like to see?

It doesn’t matter if it comes true - Just answer, What is it that you would like to see? What would be an experience that you are not having now that you would like to experience? Are you interested in personal peace? Maybe you aren’t! Understanding this Free Will Universe, all truths are honored. It is a matter of choice.


If there were a place that was not the place you are internally, would you like to be there? Are you happy with where you are? Are you peaceful with what you are?


It is simply food for thought! Play with it!!

So, I was dropped off at the top of New Brunswick in a town called Cambellton – Ironically I have about 20 family members there – but at this point it was 3pm and I knew Where I Was Going.


I walked outside of town, which took about an hour, and got picked up quick. I got a short drive and met a cool dude who plays in a metal band. I have a friend who is heavily working in the metal scene in Halifax so they are now hooked up on facebook – What an opportunistic society we live in, amazing!


The next fellow who picked me up was an engineer for the highways in NB. He was a really cool guy, very easy to chat with about a variety of subjects. He drove me to Miramachi, which is about 3 hours from the border to Nova Scotia – Very pleasant experience.


The next fellow was an older man (I actually wrote down his license as I walked to the truck remembering my last experience). Luckily this guy was the bees knees. It is hard to explain without meeting him, but he was simply solid in himself. He told me stories about his life – Explaining he has lived on both sides of the law with absolute confidence in Who He Is now.


His job is to work building windmill turbines in NB and PEI – I asked him about that a lot, given what we were talking about earlier about sustainability. It was really funny because he was explaining the governmental regulations on us powering ourselves, and how hard it would be. This subject intrigues me to say the least! He also was collecting something called “Irish Moss” which was being used medicinally, to be able to eat, and also to feed animals safely without chemicals. Again, the government put regulations on that too and is no unable to work with it legally.


I do not feel an anger or resentment towards the government, but again an extreme excitement! There are options, and there are making themselves clear. If you look back in history many of the things we “weren’t” aloud to know or have started just this way and eventually became commonplace! I feel that a similar process is happening right now and will be exponentially in effect as we simply do what we need to do to live comfortably!


I feel it’s important to say that as much as I am talking about changes in the world of form – This is not being worked at, or in the level of form…


As we have discussed the outer world is a reflection of consciousness, which has its “base” within. We can spin and toil to “make this place a better world” – Or “do what we need to do to be comfortable” – But knowing the self is imperative. Not because we should, but because this is where actual change happens in the physical. Depak Chopra wrote a wonderful quote that it is the small majority of humans on Earth who are “connected” (We are always connected, it is a shift of focus) to vision beyond the thinking state that are actually creating the world that we see.

So no matter what it is that I see changing in this world, that is still not the important shift in focus. Anything created within the structure of the matrix we are living in is bound to be subject to duality, and collapse (Don’t believe this please! Ask and see for yourself!). The un-conditional (That which is, without conditions) aspects of Self, which exist “beyond” (Within) polarity itself is the resting space of peace, vision and creation.


And it is this connection, which I am writing from. And yet it looks completely different for everyone! No one is like you on the deepest level. And yet you aren’t better or worse than any other. Head fuck, definitely. In fact, it CANNOT be grasped – So it’s an automatic head fuck, and it shall stay there happily. ;)


I was at the last exchange before the straight trip from the bottom of NB to Halifax (Getting off in Fall River) and again, confidence was soaring. The sun was down in about an hour and I KNEW Where I Was Going.


A cool 21-year-old dude picked me up and drove me about 30 minutes.


He said, “I have never picked up a hitch hiker before!” – I was happy to set a good start and example with him – We made some jokes and laughed about the fact that I was almost home.


There was about 15 minutes before the sun went down, but again, absolutely fearless – I was going home right now!


A dude who was 25 like myself stopped, but it was no good, he was going to…


Halifax! It was totally good – And timely!


He is from NB and has been living in Dartmouth for the last 3 years working with the department of fisheries. Talking to him was incredibly refreshing. He was incredibly open minded, communicative and easy to dialog with.


This beautiful young man drove me right to the front door of my Mom’s home in Fall River!! Gotta like that!


I ran up to the door excited to meet my Mother, knowing that she will be glad I was home and safe. She opened the door first and burst out saying “YOUR GROUNDED - WHERE WERE YOU AND WHY WASN’T THE CELL PHONE ON” hahahaha


She had been freaking out all day because I turned the cell phone off!! We had some laughs and cries (Try and picture who was doing which ;)) – I thought it was major cute, and after a few minutes all was well!


I actually turned off the cell phone all day to MAKE SURE that I was resting in my power. Not that one should fear anything taking them away from their power, as nothing can – But I wanted to do this myself, and get there based on the frequencies and Self that I Am.


It was about 10pm, and I slept like a wee little baby all night!!


So, here we are – This story told. Thank you to all who took the time to read this. It was my first attempt at writing something larger than two pages.


The fear that I was experiencing at the start was “Is it even possible to allow such an EXPERIENTIAL time to come out on paper?” – I realized that I have had that same excuse many times. And I am sure that most artists go through something similar – It really all does come back (for me) to fear of my own success. That knowing and pride that I am Who I Want To Be – And will continue to grow and expand into eternity!


If it is the thinking mind, the individual viewpoint of what can be seen which is weighing what that means, the dear structure has little option but to overload. That is why expanding outside (And with) the thinking mind allows for clarity in a much different way. Not one based on facts (Although facts present themselves constantly, and allow for a certain type of clarity) but one based on the EXPERIENCE of the expanded self, consciousness, presence… It does not matter what word you use. Some people dare I say, might call what I am talking about God – But that word isn’t always helpful if it is a mind structure that comes in when that is mentioned, no matter how subtle!


There is one thing that I would like to revisit.


I talk about being in a free state of consciousness a lot. I just want to very clearly state that this does not mean doing “whatever you want” always. Even more brilliant than that, a free state of consciousness isn’t really even possible to talk about. Talking comes from this space; all definition in the Universe comes through this space. Linking yourself to what cannot be named, through experience and being open to it is an experience of freedom that cannot be imagined until tasted. And yet, to strive for it doesn’t really work either. Striving in some ways can work wonderfully, but it is a paradoxical striving of no striving. Seeing just how often we are working against ourselves by “knowing” in a literal sense what is best.


Life is a living experiment, and getting close to the creator of that experiment – You with a capital Y – You before what You do – Inside of what You are – Around the form You take and play with. It’s just not a bad idea is all ;)


Ask yourself, “Am I willing to know Who I Am”?


If not, beautiful! If you think you already know, beautiful! If suddenly books, people and experiences start to happen you could have never dreamt of, beautiful!


You couldn’t fuck this one up if you tried ;)